raisinrum (raisinrum) wrote,

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I miss writing :(

*long sigh*
I can't even remember when was the last time I wrote fics, probably somewhere in february or march 2015. I know I've promised I won't abandon my ongoing fics but that's exactly what I'm doing :(
truthfully speaking, I do have time to write even though I have a very boring full-time job. and it's not like I'm lazy either because I'll always try to have time to do what I like.

but the problem is ... I'm totally uninspired.

being uninspired is different than having a writer's block. I don't even know how to explain it but I don't have the urge to continue my ongoing fics anymore. the first and main reason is probably the fact that I no longer ship certain pairing(s) I used to ship, thus writing about them now doesn't give me excitement. second, it's embarrasing but tbh I don't have confidence to write again. it actually has a lot to do with my personal issue but it's kinda uncomfortable for me to disclose it here, sorry. and third, since I don't use english on a daily basis I feel like my english has been declining a lot, lol lame excuse, I know.

I enjoy reading lots of fic every dayㅡfluffs, romance, comedy, slight angst, etc. reading how awesome the authors deliver them somehow made me feel more inferior rather than motivated. at this rate I really don't know how to bring back my inspiration and motivation to write. so if there are people out there who have been waiting for my updates I'm terribly sorry because I don't know if I will ever update again or not. sorry :(
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